August was rough.
My depression, (or as I like to say “pressions”), re-reared its ugly head and took me to a very sad place.
I’ve also been dealing with some ? health issues. More on that later as I go for follow up on Wednesday on some blood work – but could all be related to the ‘pressions.
Most recently I’ve been diagnosed with treatment-resistant depression. As far as I can tell, that means that I am super special and most anti-depressants don’t work for me. 😦 It’s a scary thing to be diagnosed with, but at the same time, I feel a little better because I always seem to end up in the dark place and now I have a reason why. It’s not a personality deficit, but some kind of reaction from my brain.
I’m lucky in the sense that I can still somewhat function even with the depression. I am however struggling with managing to get to work on time. I am also struggling with getting super fatigued (which is why I have had blood work run – to rule out biological causes of fatigue).
I am now starting on a new medication, that is newer but showing promising results in my diagnosis. I am cautiously optimistic that this might work because I am feeling better than I have in a long time already. Better enough, to have finally started to make a decision of how I am going to supplement my life/income. More to come on that front soon as well.
Until later, be awesome and be kind to yourself.